"Lord, when my soul is weary and my heart is tired and sore,
and I have that failing feeling that I can't take it anymore,
then let me know the freshning found in simple, childlike prayer,
when the hurting soul knows surely that my listening Lord is there."
Ruth Bell Graham
This is where I am at tonight.
Even though I am fighting cancer I still have:
meals to make and plan for
big kids who have things they need to vent about
a puppy who plays outside for two hours and then comes in and pees on the floor! (not funny)
bills to pay
thank yous to write
dentist appointment to go to for Rachel this week
You get the idea.
I can't take it anymore.
When I go to Jesus, in simple child like faith, knowing He is there and He hears,
that is all I need. He can take it for me. The list above will not disappear once I get off my knees. By going to Him, and asking for help, I sense His presence and His strength. He fights for me when I cannot bear to think about "it" any longer.
I find myself dreading Wednesday. The anxiety is gone as far as what to expect, but the anticipation of more nausea is, well, frightening.
I am going to go and get on my knees. I wish I could crawl in His lap....
On a lighter note, Teresa was climbing one of the cedar trees in the yard today. She took the grey cat Isabelle, tucked her under one arm, hoisted her up on a branch and then climbed up to her. She repeated this process a few times until the cat decided she'd had enough and bailed. Then she would climb down, get the poor cat, and start all over. It made me laugh!
Teresa also today, had a handkerchief over her head(like I will soon). When I asked her what was up with her new "style" she just smiled and said she thought it would be fun. Such child like ways...such joy and enthusiasm.
Girls entered things in the fair. First time ever. Teresa entered a painting she made for my birthday. Rachel entered a poem and I think a scarf she knitted. Hannah entered a hat she knitted/crocheted? and a scarf she made as well. We are anticipating good things when we go and check them out this week.
Blessings to you all....