You know how you feel glad and sad simultaneously? My heart has had a heavy dose of that feeling all week.
My brother is not faring well. Chemo the second time around is doing a number on him. He is weak, has lost some weight and feels rotten. I miss him. He won't be at Hannah's graduation party and that makes me sad...I understand totally..it is sad though. As the days blast by and I am preparing for Hannah's celebration, my heart aches for him and for his family.
Last Friday, I visited my son in his new home. Yep. He has moved on. I can hear some of you already-"That's what they're supposed to do Mom!" Right. It still causes heartache. I miss him. His new place is in Harbor Springs MI, about 17.5 miles from here and he is renting it with a couple friends. The first night he was gone, when I'd close my eyes, I'd see a little boy. I'd see him riding his bike or making lego creations. He grew up so fast! Oh God, allow him to look to You for wisdom. Make him a man after your own heart. As a deer pants after water, have his heart yearn for You...
The most intense. All week long I have been looking at pictures. Dozens of them. I have been preparing a book for Hannah, my gift to her..this was HUGE. I had to sort through 16 years of pictures, get them organized and then pick out the ones I wanted. Lots of memories. Precious baby faces, pictures of me with a child nursing choked up my throat, seeing my husband younger and so handsome(he still is) it was a huge wow...did I really do all that? Change all those diapers? Thank You Lord I "made it" this far.. You are worthy of praise..
As my babies fly from the nest help me to trust You. Help me to cling to You when I feel sad. Turning to chocolate covered almonds doesn't help. Really.
I love You Lord. Thank You for being with us as we have nurtured and grown our babies.
Keep praying for my brother and his family please.
He is faithful,