This day has bested me. Vertigo struck last night. It never tells me when it's coming and I certainly do not welcome it's arrival. I took said vertigo drugs which I believe turn me into a bonnie version of a zombie...
grumpy, ugly and ungrateful.
Girls left for church with me home, spinning slightly. Tim has a rotten cold. He was what I call "no fun."
My zombie compassion was zilch.
I turned to food today to fill the ache in my heart. It didn't work very well. I did read my Bible, but zombies do not understand Bible verses.. Especially when they are reading with a holes in their heart, wanting to be filled with strudel, chocolate or popcorn.
The words of Paul did echo in my soul today..He did ask--no he "entreated" God to take away a thorn in his flesh, 3 times. God said NO.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness." II Corinthians 12:9
To be gut wrenchingly honest, today did not FEEL like His grace was sufficient. I know zombies cannot feel, but this daylight hour, I did. I whined. I complained. I grumped. I hurled smallish logs at bigger ones, hoping to free them from their frozen places. I hurt my wrist in the process..
It is only now, in the quiet of the evening, after eating more popcorn, and watching a football game that made me think much of my brother-- the words
My grace is sufficient gently wafted to my heart.
One of the attributes of God is not pushiness. He does not heft Himself upon me. He waits, like a father--who has just talked with a son--- for the son to come and make things right.
What does that mean? For me, as a believer in Jesus Christ, it means that when the day I'm living is a zombie-fied disaster, the kindness of God, towards me, His daughter, is sufficient.
God please forgive me for my attitude today. You say if I confess my sins, You are faithful and just to forgive my sins and cleanse me from ALL unrighteousness. I John 1:9
Forgive me for the anger, that I let rule me..You say that the anger of man does not achieve the righteous life that You desire for me..James 1:20
Thank You that You are sufficient God.
Not turning to any substance, thing, show or computer junk--(fbook)
I am laying my head on my pillow, next to my snorky husband, and believing You and Your Word tonight.
You are faithful,